“Gott kam mir mit ausgestreckten Armen entgegen” – zeit.de (Apr 8)
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“God met me with open arms”
Nina Hagen on loss experience in her childhood and youth
TIME magazine: Mrs. Hagen, when you were a child , your mother, Eva-Maria Hagen tried to kill herself.
Nina Hagen: Yes, that was a big shock abandonment. Then you suddenly see that they are not the center of life is. My mother wanted me to live alone. She must have forgotten how much she loved me. I always wanted to protect her. I had such dreams in which my mom on the road running around naked, because I wanted to say you love so much that I think it sucks that they should put on something.
TIME magazine: But your father was there for you?
Hagen: Yes, I was his one and only. But when he began to be unfaithful and being fair to deal with others, came for the first time in my life up the jealousy. Jealousy is indeed the fear that one is not loved. And this loss of experience was repeated again and again. My first love, where I thought we would get married, was also common to tell Sun
TIME magazine: Was there a rescue of this loss aversion?
Hagen: I was a child who always longed for God. Loved me and lifted to feel, not just here and now, but forever and ever. And God is with me, arms outstretched, in fact accommodated. He never said, “Oh no, Nina, you’re not good enough. From today you are no longer my daughter. “So what would never do!
TIME magazine: How did you meet him that you know so exactly what he does and what does not?
Hagen: I was 17 and wanted to know. I wanted proof of God the herbeizwingen. I have taken LSD, because I had heard that some people make it as the natural order in relation to contact with God. The result was an LSD trip, which consisted only of pain. It was hell. I was at the border between this world and the hereafter. And as I said, “Dear God, help me!” And immediately he came and said, “Nina, I am here to help you too.” And I suggested to the eye and was in a beautiful world. Peaceful bliss. And God looked me in the face. And I realized: He loves me just as I loved a man has never yet, and no man can ever love like! And then I asked him: “Are you going away again like all the others?” And he said: “I was always there, I’m always there, and I’ll be there forever.”
TIME magazine: What has made so sure that this encounter with God only an LSD hallucination was not? Sounds a bit like …
Hagen: Talk to people who had a near death experience, which tell you the same thing: there is the dimension of the eternal home.
TIME magazine: Don’t your friends say: “Nina, you’ve got a crack in the bowl”?
Hagen: Nope, they have listened interested. Because I am so authentic. But I realized that my experience really only makes sense to me. For other people this is an interesting fact report, but their faith will get you only if we build a relationship with God himself.
TIME magazine: Since you are 17, you are then lifted in God. That’s not bad.
Hagen: Yes, it was a real rescue. I have now understood that I am earthly, I do not need sexual love any more. I’m already, since my first love died, widow.I am looking for no love, love is just there. I run around and do not want to marry me again or something.
TIME magazine: So only God and love your life partner?
Hagen: Yes, my good friend, teacher, master, God, the love in person.
TIME magazine: That sounds more like the concept of life of a nun?
Hagen: Yes, I am also a nun.
TIME magazine: And since when are you a nun?
Hagen: Ever since the birth of my daughter Cosma. But even before that. If you are a nun, everything is sacred. Even the sexual relationship. The nun, yes, love is a sacred thing. That makes this not because she feels instincts, but simply because they love lives, while pregnant and child in the world brings.
TIME magazine: Normally one to believe always the doubt. Do you also doubt the existence of God?
Hagen: No, I do not know.
TIME magazine: Then you are but one exception and one lucky child!
Hagen: Yes, that’s why God has given me my voice, with which I proclaim his good news.
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